Does “ALL IN” work?

I recently followed Stephanie Buttermore’s story on youtube(https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4gDYbCEIb69uvFmCX5Lyuw) , specifically, her “All in” journey. The goal of the journey was to “cure” her constant hunger. I had been a follower of hers before this journey and I was first drawn to her channel because of her 10,000-calorie challenges. I wished to be as fit and to be able to eat as much as she did on her challenges and be back to my normal weight in a few days.

Alas, this was not my story and this was not where my body was. To give you a brief insight, I am 5'6", and I have been lingering between 170lbs — 190lbs for the last 8 years. I know, that is a 20-lb difference. I have yo-yoed a lot and this year, after hitting my lowest in 5 years of 183 lbs, I got fed-up with the amount of energy or work it required for me to lose the weight and keep it off. I tried shakes , eating about 1500 calories , working out a lot, doing 10,000 steps a day religiously for about 200–300 days, etc. All these worked, but they were only temporary solutions . I also became a vegetarian and restricted a lot of foods from my diet. I couldn’t seem to keep the weight off if I stopped.

I finally decided enough was enough. I decided to do an “ALL IN” journey to see where that will take me. I quit the weight loss challenge I was in at the time, this was in May 2020, and started whopping down crazy amounts of food. Foods that I had not eaten in years, french fries, icecream, sushi, fried plantains , fried eggs, etc. My food choices had nothing to do with being healthy. I decided to take the rules that I had put around food and discard them. I can honestly say that I was on a binge fest for the next 2 months and after those 2 months, my constant cravings quieted. I was not constantly thinking about food. I felt ‘free’ for the first time in a decade. Free from restriction, free from always feeling that other people could eat anything and I couldn’t because I would put on 5 pounds, free from the judgement that I felt when I climbed on the scale. Free, Free, Free.

Where am I right now ? 12/21/20 — I recently took my weight after 6 months of not weighing myself and I had gone from 183 lbs to 224 lbs ( a whopping 41 lbs. in 6 months). None of my clothes fit and I am feeling uncomfortable in my body, but surprisingly, not as uncomfortable as I felt when I was at 183lbs .I am slowly adding healthy meals into my diet( about 60 %) and I don’t say “no” to things if I want them. The key word here is “want” not “crave”. I am not constantly craving things and I think that there has been a mental shift for me in a positive way.

I will keep you updated on my progress, but please ask me any questions.